Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Love and Career and Pessimism and.....Emo-Ness?
So, I'm looking for jobs and, I guess, a career path for myself right now and nothing seems interesting to me. I always thought I would know what I wanted to do instantly or I would somehow slip into a great job that I would love. Kind of like the person you want to spend the rest of your life with....like, "he's the one", but that hasn't happened to me so far. It's more like, yeah he's the one that I want to be with right now. I'm TERRIFIED of marriage. I don't know if I'll EVER be passionate about any one thing, especially when it comes to jobs. I think jobs are just things people do to make money. All the things that I love, like music, traveling, social justice, Christianity, etc. are things I can't make money off of (unless I create some absolutely INGENIOUS way of combining the two, like some have done so in the past), then....I guess I have to do the mundane and necessary to survive. Who the FUCK created the concept of a FUCKING "dream job".....MY GOD!! Will making tons of money and spending it make me as happy as I think I will be? (I know, people say it will not, but no money makes me UPSET so I'd have to assume the opposite). I guess having enough money to buy the things you need and a few luxuries and to have a job that leaves some time left for you to spend meaningful time with people you care about (assuming you have people like that, true friends are hard to come by nowadays). I think I might have chosen ONE or TWO boyfriends in the past out of convenience or because they liked me. I liked them later on. LoL. Yeah, I know that's bad. Stop judging me. You do shameful things too. I just wrote an incredibly long and EMO blog. Okay, bye.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Every Day Should Be Woman's Day
Something I found randomly surfing:
I decided to take a tour of the campus and asked various colleges going students what they felt was the most amazing things about girls? What was it about them that they are the favorite subjects of poets and men have laid down lives for them? From emotional and serious to heartfelt and wacky, here are the answers the guys came up with. I have chosen the best and the most common. So here goes:
1, It is amazing how women are so wonderfully giving and loving. Their love is unconditional and forever. And once they forgive, they really forget. They don’t dig out the heavy artillery, even when they have the best opportunities to do so.
2. It is lovely how women manage to hear you out for hours. They never pass judgments. Never say you are wrong (even if you have behaved like the worst jerk in the world). And when you ask for their opinion they give it without managing to make you feel a worm. They criticize without wounding.
3. The most adorable thing about a women is her blush. It speaks volumes and conveys things which even she won’t openly admit too. It is a real turn on when a women blushes at you. It shows she more than cares, she is crazy about you.
4. A smile. I dig women’s smile. Now when women smiles, she really smiles. No pretences, She smiles from her heart and speaks with her eyes. It is amazing how many ways women smiles. She has a tender smile, a loving smile, a “what will I do with you” kinda smile. A saucy grin. a smile of gentle indulgence and finally the best of them the complete smile. The smile that says “Whatever you are, however you are, I love you”
5. The way they get all in a frenzy, when they want to let you know of their achievements. Their eyes say “I want you to be proud of me” but they will die rather than admit it, After all they only wanted to let you know.
6. I love a woman when she loses her temper. She gets all fluttered, says all sort of things she doesn’t mean, is generally very harsh and then bursts into tears. Now help me out here, who is one being yelled at?
7. I am amazed at the reticence of a woman. If men were dished even half the crap some women are dished out every day we would raise a hue and cry. But women bear it all and come out smiling. They even manage to love the jerk who does it all to them.
8. I love the general “do-good” attitude that is an undeniable part of every woman. They are out to reform everyone. They will give you sermons on all your vices (by the number of ‘vices’ they list you will feel a worse insect than Satan will) and tell you have to reform to be a “better” person. And will be hurt if you don’t wanna change.
9. I know you may think me a sadist due to this but personally I think the most beautiful and irresistible thing about a woman is her tear. It is guaranteed to break down the hardest of resistances and melt the stoniest hearts. On the other side it also shows the breaking of all the barriers a woman builds up. When a woman is crying she is opening up completely before you and trusts you enough for it.
10. And finally the answer I heard most often, “I can’t tell you any single thing that I love about a woman, It is the perfect mix that makes men go weak-kneed. The sensuality combined with nurturing, the naughtiness combined with caring, the vivacity coupled with quiet understanding. It is a heady mix and man, it is very intoxicating.
I decided to take a tour of the campus and asked various colleges going students what they felt was the most amazing things about girls? What was it about them that they are the favorite subjects of poets and men have laid down lives for them? From emotional and serious to heartfelt and wacky, here are the answers the guys came up with. I have chosen the best and the most common. So here goes:
1, It is amazing how women are so wonderfully giving and loving. Their love is unconditional and forever. And once they forgive, they really forget. They don’t dig out the heavy artillery, even when they have the best opportunities to do so.
2. It is lovely how women manage to hear you out for hours. They never pass judgments. Never say you are wrong (even if you have behaved like the worst jerk in the world). And when you ask for their opinion they give it without managing to make you feel a worm. They criticize without wounding.
3. The most adorable thing about a women is her blush. It speaks volumes and conveys things which even she won’t openly admit too. It is a real turn on when a women blushes at you. It shows she more than cares, she is crazy about you.
4. A smile. I dig women’s smile. Now when women smiles, she really smiles. No pretences, She smiles from her heart and speaks with her eyes. It is amazing how many ways women smiles. She has a tender smile, a loving smile, a “what will I do with you” kinda smile. A saucy grin. a smile of gentle indulgence and finally the best of them the complete smile. The smile that says “Whatever you are, however you are, I love you”
5. The way they get all in a frenzy, when they want to let you know of their achievements. Their eyes say “I want you to be proud of me” but they will die rather than admit it, After all they only wanted to let you know.
6. I love a woman when she loses her temper. She gets all fluttered, says all sort of things she doesn’t mean, is generally very harsh and then bursts into tears. Now help me out here, who is one being yelled at?
7. I am amazed at the reticence of a woman. If men were dished even half the crap some women are dished out every day we would raise a hue and cry. But women bear it all and come out smiling. They even manage to love the jerk who does it all to them.
8. I love the general “do-good” attitude that is an undeniable part of every woman. They are out to reform everyone. They will give you sermons on all your vices (by the number of ‘vices’ they list you will feel a worse insect than Satan will) and tell you have to reform to be a “better” person. And will be hurt if you don’t wanna change.
9. I know you may think me a sadist due to this but personally I think the most beautiful and irresistible thing about a woman is her tear. It is guaranteed to break down the hardest of resistances and melt the stoniest hearts. On the other side it also shows the breaking of all the barriers a woman builds up. When a woman is crying she is opening up completely before you and trusts you enough for it.
10. And finally the answer I heard most often, “I can’t tell you any single thing that I love about a woman, It is the perfect mix that makes men go weak-kneed. The sensuality combined with nurturing, the naughtiness combined with caring, the vivacity coupled with quiet understanding. It is a heady mix and man, it is very intoxicating.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Jesus Comes Alive
Yesterday, during small group, while we were reading the Bible, it felt as if Jesus was just coming alive. It seemed like every word I read was Jesus speaking to me right at that moment, and I felt him nearer to me than I ever had - this time, though, without being emotional. His every command, his every comfort, his every promise...seemed so real I felt if I just kneeled down at that moment and prayed in faith, He would make things happen.
He doesn't need us, but he wants to use us, because he wants us to learn, to fellowship, and he wants us to know Him. He is Perfect, he loves when it is impossible for us to love, he chases after us when other people have abandoned us, his patience never runs out and he is wise beyond what we can imagine. He told us that soon, people won't be able to see Him, but those who believe will see.
I want to take my Bible, open it up, and just tell people, "Look! It's Him! This is what He has promised us, and He's real!" It took me so long to realize this. It seems easy, but I know it's extremely difficult for people to believe. I know because I went through this, even as a Christian. I know that in the future I might go through this again, but I pray I hold on to the faith I have now...with all of me and everything I have.
My sister said that she was reading through her journal, and her CD was skipping while she worshipping. It skipped once, twice, three times and she turned it off. A few pages after that journal entry, there came a journal entry that she had written down a verse about striking the ground three times, and to keep striking the ground. God answered her like they were having an A and B conversation!
He doesn't need us, but he wants to use us, because he wants us to learn, to fellowship, and he wants us to know Him. He is Perfect, he loves when it is impossible for us to love, he chases after us when other people have abandoned us, his patience never runs out and he is wise beyond what we can imagine. He told us that soon, people won't be able to see Him, but those who believe will see.
I want to take my Bible, open it up, and just tell people, "Look! It's Him! This is what He has promised us, and He's real!" It took me so long to realize this. It seems easy, but I know it's extremely difficult for people to believe. I know because I went through this, even as a Christian. I know that in the future I might go through this again, but I pray I hold on to the faith I have now...with all of me and everything I have.
My sister said that she was reading through her journal, and her CD was skipping while she worshipping. It skipped once, twice, three times and she turned it off. A few pages after that journal entry, there came a journal entry that she had written down a verse about striking the ground three times, and to keep striking the ground. God answered her like they were having an A and B conversation!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Ready, Set, Reach...Your Goals
1. Learn about international trade a.k.a. import/export
2. Join more social networking sites
3. Revamp dad's MIS of his import/export company
More to Come...
2. Join more social networking sites
3. Revamp dad's MIS of his import/export company
More to Come...
Friday, August 24, 2007
Observations in Taiwan
Observation #1: There is virtually no carrying on of conversation when you walk into the streets or even when people are eating. Couples eat together, sitting face-to-face, in silence. An outside observer would think that this couple was having an argument but if you observe long enough, they have moments of movie-like sentiment.
Observation #2: People are picky about what others around them do (if they are doing the right thing and if they are doing it right). They care a lot about decorum, yet when you walk into a woman's restroom into one of the stalls, the toilet seat is covered with urine!
Observation #3: Guys hold their girlfriend's purses and hold their umbrella over their heads as well. On Chinese Valentine's Day, there are guys holding purses and shoppings bags, walking behind their girlfriends'...then he pays for her, while the girl stands by looking proud and haughty.
Observation #4: All girls in Taiwan want to be little princesses...or at least the majority. Tell a girl she looks ten years younger than she really is and she bursts with laughter and glee that even she can't control. You have just made her day.
Observation #5: When I wear flip flops, people look down and stare at you. They asked Jennifer if she lived nearby, if she had just come out of her place for a visit to Xi Men Ding.
Observation #2: People are picky about what others around them do (if they are doing the right thing and if they are doing it right). They care a lot about decorum, yet when you walk into a woman's restroom into one of the stalls, the toilet seat is covered with urine!
Observation #3: Guys hold their girlfriend's purses and hold their umbrella over their heads as well. On Chinese Valentine's Day, there are guys holding purses and shoppings bags, walking behind their girlfriends'...then he pays for her, while the girl stands by looking proud and haughty.
Observation #4: All girls in Taiwan want to be little princesses...or at least the majority. Tell a girl she looks ten years younger than she really is and she bursts with laughter and glee that even she can't control. You have just made her day.
Observation #5: When I wear flip flops, people look down and stare at you. They asked Jennifer if she lived nearby, if she had just come out of her place for a visit to Xi Men Ding.
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